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My Mind Has A Mind Of Its Own My Mind ima Mind vlastite

By Expert Author: Joletta McKliget By Expert Autor: Joletta McKliget
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Joletta McKliget

The story revolves around my struggles with addiction, the life I did not choose to lead and where that lifestyle has led me. Priča se vrti oko moje borbe s ovisnošću, u životu nisam odlučite vode i gdje je stil života koji je vodila mene. This story goes into the numerous facets of my life, including addiction and recovery, and personal history It is a compilation of my personal experiences to this point, paying attention to information I have been privileged to receive from God, 12 step recovery programs and friends. Ova priča ide u brojnim aspektima mog života, uključujući i ovisnost i oporavak, i osobna povijest je kompilacija mojih osobnih iskustava u ovom trenutku, posvećivao pažnju na podatke sam bio povlašteno primiti od Boga, 12 korak recovery programa i prijateljima .

I grew up in Oregon with my mom, step dad and younger sister. Sam odrastao u Oregon s moje majke, korak tata i mlađa sestra. My mom and her husband at the time had their struggles. Moja mama i njezin muž u vrijeme kada su njihove borbe. My step dad drank a lot and my mother was a very controlling individual with security issues of her own, and depression issues. Moj korak tata pio puno i moja majka je bila vrlo kontroli pojedinca sa sigurnosnim pitanjima vlastitih, depresije i probleme. Some where along the way growing up I felt like I didn't fit in anywhere. Neki gdje raste uz put sam se osjećala kao ja ne stane u bilo gdje.

Rebellious Teenager Nepokorni Teenager
I loved movies and I loved role play. Ja sam volio filmove i volio igrati ulogu. I idolized rockers, country rockers and the hard-core lifestyle they lived and I wanted to be apart of it. Ja idolized rockers, rockers zemlji i hard-core lifestyle su živjeli i ja sam htjela biti pored nje. I would attend parties on the weekends and one thing led to another and I tried my first line of Cocaine when I was 15, some kids offered it to me at a party. Bih pohađati stranaka na vikende i jedna stvar je doveo do drugog i pokušao sam moj prvi redak kokain kada sam bio 15, neke djece ponudio je da mi na party. I was curious about drugs, so it was an easy sale. Bio sam znatiželjan o drogama, tako je lako prodaju.

That one line of Cocaine started me on a path of getting high at school and drunk before. Da je jedan redak kokain počeo me na put uzimajući u visoke škole i pili prije. Classes, track practice and meets. Klase, pratiti i praksi susreće. It would interfere with my drug and drinking life. To bi ometati moj droge i pili života. What I thought was normal behavior was not normal at all. Što sam mislio je normalno ponašanje nije normalno to sve. I was out of control, addicted to drugs and in the midst of all this craziness I was so dependent on one good apple out of the bunch of Christian friends I had that as crazy as it sounds upon our graduation from high school I followed her to college in Boise, Idaho. Bio sam izvan kontrole, podati se droge i usred sve ove craziness sam bio tako ovisan o jednom dobrom jabuka od hrpa kršćanske prijatelje koje sam imao kao lud kao što zvuči na naš prelaska iz srednje škole I pođe za njom do fakultet u Boise, Idaho. What was strange at this point in my life was this move got me around strong minded individuals not only mentally, but physically and spiritually. Što je čudno u ovom trenutku u mom životu bio je ovaj potez mi je dobio oko strong istomišljenika pojedinci ne samo psihički, nego fizički i duhovno. The hidden message I realized later was this got my off the booze and the drugs. Skrivene poruke sam shvatio kasnije je ovaj dobio od moje piće i droga. Yet my destructive, controlling, manipulative mind set; in addition to, my low self esteem still took me down a path of destruction. Ali moje destruktivne, kontroling, manipulative umu set; uz, moj low self poštovanje i dalje su me down put uništenja.

Marriage, Children, and Divorce. Brak, Djeca i Razvod braka.
Since I quit the booze and drugs, my attitude never changed. Budući da ja sam prestala je alkoholno piće i droga, moj stav nikada nije promijenjen. I dropped out of college, had met a man seventeen years my senior with three boys of his own. I pao je iz koledža, je u susret neki čovjek sedamnaest godina moj stariji dječaci s tri svoje. We married, had three children of our own, and fought with one another very abusively. Mi oženjen, ima troje djece od vlastitog, i borio s jednom drugom vrlo abusively. How any of us made it through the 10 year marriage without me drinking or drugging God only knows. Kako bilo koji od nas je preko 10 godina brak bez mene za piće ili drugging samo Bog zna.

My Life on Cocaine and Alcohol, Later Heroin and Alcohol Moj život na kokain i alkohol, kasnije Heroin i Alkohol
After my marriage had failed, and full of guilt and shame all I wanted to do was hang out and get high - and I could never get high enough. Nakon što je moj brak nije uspio, i puna krivnje i stida sve sam htjela da je "smrznut će se i dobiti visoke - a ja nikada ne bi mogao dobiti dovoljno visoke. Sometimes I would be up for days, using constantly. Ponekad bih se se za dane, koristeći stalno. When I'd finally come down, I was totally depleted. Kada bih napokon sići, bio sam potpuno osiromassenog. I would barely get out of bed for weeks. Ja bih jedva get out of bed za tjedna. I even tried to stay sober at one point or another. Čak sam pokušao da ostane miran u jednom trenutku ili nekom drugom. I got a job at a local janitorial service to support myself, but after a month I started using again. JA je dobio posao na lokalnoj janitorial usluga za podršku ja osobno, ali nakon mjesec dana sam počeo ponovno korištenje. I couldn't hold my job because I was too sick and too high to function. Nisam mogao držati moj posao, jer sam bila previše bolna i prevelik da funkcija.

I was living on the doorstep of death everyday, almost unknowingly because I had no idea how toxic and dangerous the chemicals were that I put in my body. Ja je živim na pragu smrti svakodnevnim, gotovo nesvjesno, jer sam imala ideju kako otrovne i opasne kemikalije, koje su mi stavili u moje tijelo.

I lived wherever I could, in the woods, camping in tents or in trailers, even under tarps tied to two separated trees. I gdje god živio bih mogao, u šumi, u šatorima ili kamp prikolice u, čak i pod tarps povezane s dva odvojena stabla. When I did have a job for a short period of time I had my own apartment where my children could come and visit. Kada sam se za posao za kratko vrijeme sam imao svoj stan gdje je moja djeca mogu doći i posjetiti. Things were looking up, only for me to tear them down when I would see my children, and feel the guilt once again. Stvari su se gleda, samo za mene to tear ih kad bih vidjeti svoju djecu, i osjećam krivicu opet. The guilt I couldn't and wouldn't deal with led me back to the booze and now heroin, since the cocaine wasn't working anymore Krivicu nisam mogla bi i ne bave se vodio me natrag napiti se i sada heroin, kokain, jer je više ne radi

Falling Apart Padala Apart

I tried to lead a regular life, but I found that on coke, later on heroin that even the simplest things were impossible. JA pokušao to lead redovan život, ali otkrio sam da na koks, kasnije na heroin da čak i najjednostavnije stvari su nemoguće. My apartment looked like someone had taken everything I owned, shook it up and dropped it on the floor. Moj stan izgledala kao netko je uzeo sve što sam vlasništvu, drmati ga i pao je na podu. I could barely walk through the piles of garbage, dirty dishes, clothes and knickknacks. Sam mogao jedva hoda kroz hemoroidi od smeća, prljave jela, odjeću i knickknacks. I very seldom ate or slept. Ja vrlo rijetko jeli ili spava. I wasn't taking care of myself. I nije brinuo o meni. I want the best for my children, and with me being on drugs I simply could not be a mother. Želim najbolje za svoju djecu, i sa mnom se na droge ja jednostavno ne može biti majka. I was angry and irritable all the time, constantly aggravated, frustrated, yelling and screaming. Bio sam ljut i razdražljiv svih vremena, stalno pooštrenih, frustriran, deranja i screaming. I tried to kill myself numerous times, of no avail. JA pokušao ubiti sebe brojne puta, bez pomoći. The strange thing I didn't realize was it wasn't until I got in recovery that I was trying to kill myself every day I drank and used. Je čudno što nisam realizirati je nije bilo dok sam je dobio u oporavak da sam bio težak da ubije sebe, svaki dan sam se ja napio i koristi.

I know many women who've had their children taken away, even mothers who chose to give their kids up to the system. Znam mnoge žene koji ste imali svoju djecu oduzeta, čak i majke koji izabra da njihova djeca do sustava. I know women who have literally lost their minds because of drugs and booze and I was becoming one of them. Znam žene koji su doslovno izgubili pamet zbog droge i napiti se i sam postaje jedan od njih. I had no patience - especially for my own children . I nije imao strpljenja - posebno za svoju djecu. It was with this realization that I knew I had to change my life. To je bio s ovom spoznaji da sam znao sam da promijeni svoj život.

I met a man in recovery and together we both realized we needed a change. Sam sreo čovjeka u oporavku i zajedno smo i mi je potreban da bi se shvatio promjenu. The adventure we embarked on took us to Washington State. Avanturu smo embarked na uze nam da Washington State. His family lived there. Njegova obitelj je živio tamo. All this did for me was to intensify my guilt over my children and my low self esteem. Sve to je za mene bila je moja krivnja da intenzivirati preko moje djece i moje low self poštovanje. The only way I knew to cope was to dive deeper into my addictive lifestyle. Jedini način znao sam da je boriti se roniti dublje u moj lifestyle zarazna. I had my brushes with the law and legal systems, and near death experiences. JA je moj četke sa zakonom i pravnim sustavima, a kod smrti iskustva. The one that I accredit to opening my eyes was when I had a heart attack at the young age of 33. U jednom da sam akreditirati na otvaranju moje oči bio je kada sam imao srčani udar na mlade dobi od 33.

I met a nun that was 24 years old that lived a similar lifestyle of my own. Sam sreo jednog močvarna sjenica da je 24 godina da je živio sličan stil života sam od sebe. A soft spoken young girl that was not threatening to me, or condemning of my lifestyle. A soft spoken mlada djevojka koja je ne prijeti mi, ili osuđujući moj stil života. It was the first time I felt I had seen an angel in human form. Bio je to prvi put sam osjećala sam vidio anđela u ljudskom obliku. A beautiful angel I will never forget until my dying day. A prekrasan anđeo ću nikada zaboraviti do moje umiranje dan. She introduced me to state officials to get help. Ona je uvela me da drzavni sluzbenici kako biste dobili pomoć.

Finding Help Finding Pomoć
I went to the state to find mental health help and I went in for a drug and alcohol assessment. I ode u državnom pronaći pomoć mentalno zdravlje i ja išli u za droge i alkohol procjene. I went from one inpatient treatment center after another struggling in between to stay clean and sober. Sam otišao iz jednog centra stacionarna liječenja nakon drugi bori za ostanak u između čiste i otrijezniti. After going through this, the woman running the last program I attended left it up to me to do some outpatient treatment, and it changed my life. Nakon što prolazi kroz ovo, žena je pokrenut prošle program sam prisustvovao ostavi ga da mi da neke ambulantno liječenje, i to Chanel moj život.

I took recovery seriously and attended as many 12-step meetings as possible - sometimes five meetings a day - anything to get me through it without using. I uze oporavak ozbiljno i koliko je prisustvovalo 12-korak sastanaka što je više moguće - ponekad pet sastanaka na dan - ništa da bi me kroz to bez koristi. I also joined a program that taught me basic life skills, like budgeting and parenting. Također sam se pridružio programu koji me učio osnovne vještine života, kao što je budžetiranje i parenting. Even though at this point in my life I didn't have my children with me. Iako u ovom trenutku u mom životu, nisam se moja djeca sa mnom. I also joined other spiritual programs from church, meditation, and incense and smudging rituals of Native Americans. Ja također pridružile druge duhovne programe iz crkve, meditacija, i tamjana i smudging obreda od Indijanaca. Something to give me a spiritual base to hold onto when the days felt like I wouldn't get through them being clean and sober. Nešto da me duhovno uporište na čekanju na dane kada se osjećao kao ja ne bih dobiti kroz njih se čiste i ne pij.

During this same process I met, came to know, and grow in love with a man in recovery. Tijekom tog istog procesa sam sreo, došao da zna, i rasti u ljubavi s čovjeka na oporavak. When writing this article we have been married 14 years. Prilikom pisanja ovog članka imamo je oženjen 14 godina. I met, grew to love, and walk this road of sobriety and spiritual growth with my soul mate. Ja smo se sreli, rastao u ljubavi, i hodite ovaj put trijeznost i duhovni rast s moje duše drug. Also during this time the idea of being self-sufficient was mind-boggling. Također tijekom ovaj vrijeme na ideju da su self-dovoljno je um-boggling. I was terrified to even set a goal for myself. Bio sam prestrašite se čak postaviti cilj za sebe. At first, I hated the daily chores and meetings, and learning to be a responsible adult at age 33. U početku sam mrzio svakodnevni sitni i sastanaka, i učenje biti odgovorna odrasla osoba u dobi 33. I don't recall when it finally hit that I live this lifestyle because I wanted to and not because I had to. Ja ne prisjetiti kad je konačno pogodio da ja živim ovaj stil života, jer sam htjela da i ne jer sam morala. All I do know is that now with 17 plus years of sobriety it has become a part of me. Sve ću učiniti znam je da sada sa 17 plus godina trezvenost postalo je dio mene. I live to enhance and strengthen it so I may share it with others today. Ja živim za poboljšanje rada i ojačati ga tako da sam svibanj dijeliti s drugima danas.

To Everyone Out There Svima vani
In the beginning, cocaine gave me a feeling of euphoria, as the heroin and booze did later. U početku, kokain mi dali osjećaj euforije, kao što je heroin i napiti se je kasnije. In the end, all of it made me feel hollow and empty. Na kraju, sve to me osjetiti šuplje i prazno. Now I want to inspire hope in the families who know someone with an addiction like mine. Sada želim potaknuti nadu u obitelji koji poznaju nekoga s ovisnost poput mine. People get stuck, and it's important to give them hope to get out of it. Ljudi se zaglavi, i zato je važno da im dati nadu da bi iz nje. Please! Molim! Don't give up - miracles happen everyday. Nemoj odustati - čuda se dogoditi svakodnevice.

Look if you want more for yourself and your family... Potražite ako želite više za sebe i svoje obitelji ... if you're tired of other people limiting your potential, or all the negativity and destructive behavior brought about due to drug and alcohol use then you really owe it to yourself to take the steps to get help. ako ste umorni od drugih ljudi ograničavati vašu potencijal, ili sve negativity i destruktivno ponašanje odvede oko zbog droge i alkohola koristiti onda ste stvarno dugujete to sebi poduzeti korake da biste dobili pomoć. There's a saying... THERE'S A govoreći: "...
"If You Keep Doing What You've Always Done You Keep Getting What You've Always Gotten". "Ako zadržite što ste Uvijek Done You Keep Getting Što ste Uvijek dobivši".

I am living proof (in addition to the thousands of other success stories out there), that when it comes to recovery and the life I share with my husband, grown children, and grandchildren, that recovery will change ones life forever. Ja sam dnevni dokaz (osim na tisuće drugih uspješnica vani), da kad se dolazi do oporavka i život dijelim s moj muž, uzgajaju djecu i unučad, da oporavak će promijeniti one život zauvijek. Struggles that once seemed "a part of life", are now a thing of the past. Borbe da se jednom činilo da "dio života", sada su stvar prošlosti. You literally can be free from the bondage of addiction and or alcoholism, and receive so much in recovering. Vi doslovno možete biti slobodni od ropstva i ovisnosti ili alkoholizam, i primiti toliko u oporavlja. All you have to do today is, SAY "MAYBE," I have a problem, and let those that have been walking through this journey of recovery help you along the way. Sve što morate učiniti je danas, reći: "Možda," imam problem, i neka oni koji su šetnju kroz ovaj put oporavka Vam pomoći uz put.

For any input or comments feel free to contact me at 888-323-8916 Option 101 or email me at richbeyondmeasure@gmail.com You never know. Za sve ono što se umeće ili komentare budite slobodni kontaktirati me na 888-323-8916 Option 101 ili elektronička pošta mene at richbeyondmeasure@gmail.com Nikada ne znate. Our paths may be destined to cross and meet face to face. Naše staze svibanj biti odredjeno za to da križ i susret licem u lice.

About the Author/Author Bio O Autor / Author Bio

I am a 51 year old women with my own home business in the Pacific Northwest residing in Central Washington with my husband. Ja sam 51 godina stare žene sa svoje poslovanje u Pacific Northwest prebivalištem u Centar Washington sa svojim mužem. I have 3 grown children and 7 grandchildren. Imam 3 uzgajaju djecu i unučad 7. I am a grateful recovering Alcoholic and Addict with 17 plus years of continuous sobriety and clean time. Ja sam zahvalan oporavlja alkoholnih i Addict s plus 17 godina neprekidnog trezvenost i čistu put. Part of my purpose in life is to share my experience, strength, and hope with others. Dio mog života je u svrhu da dijele moje iskustvo, snaga i nada s drugima. If this can benefit one person out there then I have fulfilled my purpose on this leg of my journey. Ako se to može imati koristi jedna osoba tamo onda sam ispunio moja svrha na ovom leg moje putovanje. May you be Blessed, strengthened, and filled wth hope to continuey your journey. Svibanj ti se Blago, solidarnosti i napuni wth se nadam da continuey na put.

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Everybody knew that “Jerry” needed to get some help with his drinking. Svi su znali da "Jerry" potrebna kako bi vam neke pomoći s njegove pio. His routine of having a couple of drinks with the boys after work began to include several after dinner drinks as well. Njegov rutinu da par pića sa dječaka nakon što je počeo raditi na nekoliko uključuju nakon večere i pića. The change in him was gradual, but over time everybody knew something had to be done. Promjene u njemu je postupan, ali s vremenom sve znao je da se nešto dogodilo. Jerry had missed meetings with his daughter’s teacher, and had not attended a soccer game or dance recital in months. Loš je propustila sastanaka sa svojom kćeri učitelj, i nije prisustvovao nogometna utakmica ili dance recital u mjeseci.
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